Wednesday, November 05, 2008

If Only It Were All A Nightmare. - Kate

Sometimes I wish this could all be a dream. This whole diabetes thing. As i'm sure we all do. I have been having nightmares lately. Last night, without going into too much detail, diabetes basicly did everything it could to me, and I had every diabetes complication you could possibly imagine, streaming in endlessly one after the other. That was a dream.

Yesterday, when I went to get my A1C done, it read greather than 14%. The machine doesn't read over 14%. That wasn't a dream. And last night's nightmare might become a reality pretty soon if I can't get this down.

Panic.
Failure.
Worthless.
Ashamed.
Lost.
Scared.

2 comments:

Mike said...

Kate and/or Emma,

Hang in there. My first suggestion would be to simply test more. That helped me when my A1C was higher than most planes fly. You can do it! Deep breath!

-Mike :)

Emma said...

*hugs* it's gonna be okay, kate.

text me or IM me or whatever if you wanna talk, ever.